Sometimes we believe that we have moved on, that we have forgotten, that we have finally freed ourselves from emotions and thoughts...but then we realize that we still love the same soul.
Believe me, I don't want you to love me.
It would be a lot easier if you weren't.
You live a new life. And I? I'm not in it anymore.
BUT…
… YOUR VOICE
I can still hear it in my head, as if you were talking to me right now. It is gentle warm and safe. It's like poison.
… YOUR EYES
Eyes that are like an ocean. Penetrating. Big ones. They see the reality we live in and the illusion of what would be if it were. They see that I was once a part of them.
… YOUR LIPS
Lips that I would kiss incessantly. I can't erase them from my memory.
YOUR WONDERFUL MIND
A mind that is so wise, full of knowledge, experience and wonderful thoughts. Thoughts that once made me happy
… YOUR SINCERENESS
No fear. Endless. Daring. Alone against all.
… YOUR VULNERABILITY
You were so carefree, devoted and unafraid of things, yet you were so vulnerable. And you hid it well. You are a soul like the world has never seen.
… YOUR SPONTANEITY
You've always loved the possibilities that will happen. You were not afraid of the unexpected. You knew how to respond to every situation.
… YOUR PRIORITIES
You knew what you wanted and what you didn't. You always fought. You knew how to put yourself on the edge of everything and everyone.
… YOUR LAUGHTER
A laugh that could put a smile on my face even when it was bad. Difficult. Busy.
… THE FACT OF HOW I LOVED YOU
I couldn't wait for us to meet. Heard. You wrote. Kisses and hugs. The moments without you seemed like an eternity. the minutes became a year. I don't usually get that attached, but I did. And a lot.
Just because the relationship ended doesn't mean we stopped loving the person.
And we probably never will. Because special people are written in our heart and stay there forever.
If you feel lost at this point, don't be embarrassed. Don't be ashamed. Idealize. It's part of grieving. Pain is the material with which you will build strength. Ourselves. One day, the soul that you love unconditionally at this moment will be just a beautiful memory of the times that will remain in your heart forever. And you can be happy that you were with a person who is worth anchoring there!
