"If we are willing to change our thinking, we can change our lives." - Louise L. Hay
2020 is almost over, it's been a long, crazy, amazing year. And before it ends, I want to forgive myself and let some moments out of it.
I want to forgive myself for all the times I thought I deserved less, not more. For persisting too long in situations that were not good for me. For allowing myself to fall asleep in tears and wake up as if nothing was wrong. For not being honest with myself, and for hiding certain parts of myself because I was too busy worrying about what others thought of me.
To the person I was in 2020, I'm telling you that I'm sorry for not taking better care of her and putting others before her. I'm sorry for all the times I didn't appreciate her beauty, compassion and kind heart. I'm sorry for all the pain she went through and most of all I'm sorry I let her get into a situation where I didn't do everything to make her better.
To the person I will be in 2021, let me know that I am very much looking forward to meeting her. I know she will be great and do amazing things. I know she will easily handle whatever the year throws at her.
Dear person, you have already walked through the storm and now it is time to see the light. You deserve all the goodness that life will bring because you brought it to others around you without even thinking about yourself.
It won't be easy, but you can do it. But be kinder to yourself this time. Allow yourself to rest when needed. You leave situations that are not good for you. You remove everything that takes away your joy and never settle for anything less than you deserve.
And if you ever realize that you haven't been so kind to yourself, please forgive yourself.
You know that just like everyone else, you can make mistakes and learn from them. Remember, the only person you have to impress at the end of the day is YOU. You are beautiful. Kind. Smart. You are imperfectly perfect - you are YOU.
