Dear..., I have something to confess to you. Every day I spend hours and hours thinking about you, waiting for your call, your message, for a sign that I am important to you. But this waiting is killing me. I feel like I'm always at the bottom of your priority list. I know you have a lot of work, responsibilities and friends, but... What about me?
I told myself too many times that next time you will be different, that you will show more interest, more love. But every time I don't get an answer or you reschedule our date, I feel left out and forgotten. I deserve more than that, I deserve to be heard and respected.
It hurts the most when I have to adapt to your schedule, your wants and needs. Why is it never the other way around? Why am I always the one waiting while you carefreely move on?
I decided that I finally had to stop doing this. I need to set boundaries and start valuing my time. My life is too precious to waste it hoping that you will change. I will no longer wait for your call, I will no longer postpone my plans for you. I will start living for myself and for the people who really value me.
Believe me, it was not easy for me to make this decision. But I know it is the only way forward. Maybe I'll still miss you, maybe I'll still hope that you'll ever realize what you had. But now I know I have to put myself first.
I hope you will understand and that one day you will learn to appreciate the people who love you. I will take care of myself and my happiness during this time.
I'm finally free!
