People may have good intentions, but that doesn't mean they will follow through.
You wonder why there aren't any. Maybe they have some problems. Maybe they are too busy and don't have time right now. Maybe they want to be with you, but… The sooner you realize that if they wanted to be in your life, they would be, the better for you.
People who want to be a part of your life will make an effort to do so. If they have problems, they will let you know, they will communicate with you. If they know they can't be there for you in the way you need them, they'll tell you straight up.
But sometimes you don't believe them. You prefer to believe in excuses rather than the truth that the person told you. You assume and tell them in different ways that they are not trying hard enough.
Excuses hold hope. They are promises you make to yourself on their behalf. You want to believe that if you're flexible, they'll come back. If you prove to them that you're worth their time, they might come. You become small, look for excuses and justify them to yourself. You're making excuses for someone who won't come.
Your heart breaks more every time you wait for an answer that never comes.
You cling to hope when they tell you they really want to be with you, but not now, someday!
You get tired of realizing that this future will never come. You finally accept the fact that not everything in your life is going the way you want it to. You decide that you don't need them in your life in that way, and that doesn't make you a bad person.
Sometimes your wants and needs don't match the other person's. Sometimes you need them in ways that they don't want to or can't be the kind of person you want them to be. That doesn't mean they or you are a bad person, it doesn't mean there's something wrong with you or them or anything. Maybe this person is just not the person they are meant to be in your life.
Believe in the fact that people say a lot, but only their actions show who they are.
There are people who see you for who you are and appreciate you. They understand and admire you and make room in their lives for you. They understand that there are two people in a relationship who are willing to meet halfway to find out in what way they are there for each other.
There are people who will do anything to be there for you. They don't leave you guessing as to why they are absent. You deserve someone who is honest with you and won't give you half promises. They will be there for you in difficult times, even though they may be uncomfortable. You deserve to have people in your life that you know you can count on, not those that make you constantly wonder if they'll ever find time for you.
If someone wants to be in your life, they will.
It hurts that they didn't, and that's okay too. Remember that this person is not the end of the world. This person is not the only one who can support you, care for you and love you.
You will meet people who want to be in your life, who see you as someone they don't want to live without, not someone they have to put up with. Believe it!
