"The greatest happiness in life is to be loved just the way you are... or in spite of it." – Victor Hugo
I was ignorant to wait for you to realize my worth. I have no problem taking things slowly, nor do I want to move into your apartment. But I have a problem when it comes to communication that only happens through messages, without any face-to-face meetings. I have a problem when our relationship has no definition. I have a problem with doubt and indecision.
I'm too old to play games. If you're flirting with someone else or telling me how other women want you, you're not the one for me. If I'm not your priority and you find it hard to find time for us in your busy schedule, you're not the person for me. I'm not interested in an obscure place in your life. I won't beg for your attention. I'm not going to convince you why you should choose me over everyone else. If you are in doubt and choosing between me and another option, choose it. I don't want to be a backup. I want to be the only one.
I was too old to pretend. If you say something to me that confuses me, I won't spend the night thinking and repeating your words to myself, wondering what you were trying to say. If you're being rude to me, I'm not going to keep quiet just to avoid an argument. I will ask you questions. I will speak, reveal my feelings instead of keeping a mask on my face. I won't erase my feelings to make you feel better. That's not my style.
I overlooked an immature and insecure relationship. I won't waste my time listening to your stories if you're not ready to say we're a couple. I will not put my energy into you if you are not sure if our relationship is right and has a future. I will not agree with everything you want, because I have a clear vision of what I want and what I want. I am someone who is not afraid to stay loyal.
I ignored the fact that I would feel uncomfortable when I was alone. I don't lie to myself anymore. I know that if I'm not happy in a relationship, it's better to be alone. And that's totally fine.
If there is a relationship that makes sense, I will gladly accept it. But until then - even though I'm sometimes in love with people who want things to be easy, no strings attached, or those who never tell me what we really are - I'd rather be alone.
