Life was easier when you were here.

You know that feeling? You wake up in the morning and for a moment forget that the person is no longer next to you. Or you pick up the phone to tell them the news, and then you remember that.... Your first instinct is still to call them - her, him, you.

When you were here, everything was clear.

Every problem had a solution because we found it together. Every pain was bearable because you were there for me until it passed. Every decision was easier because I had someone who knew me inside out.

You warned me about people who were pretending. You saw the lies that I didn't want to see. You always said, "Don't trust too quickly. Don't give your heart to just anyone who's nice."

But I was angry. I thought you were too suspicious, too cautious. Only now do I understand that you were just protecting me from a world you know better than I do.

I felt fearless with you.

Not because I was brave, but because I knew – if I fall, you'll be there. If I stumble, you'll catch me. How can I be fearless now that you're gone?

I was dependent on you without realizing it.

While you taught me independence, I became dependent on your advice. While you taught me that I don't need anyone to be happy, I I needed you for everything.For every smile, every decision, every morning.

I don't know how to make a decision without your opinion. I don't know if I can trust the person because there's no one to tell me the truth. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing because there's no one to point out my mistakes. You were my compass.. Now I feel lost.

You forgot to prepare me for life without you.

You promised I'd always be okay. You believed in me more than I believed in myself. But you forgot to tell me, How can I be okay when you're not by my side?.

You taught me to fly, but you forgot to teach me to land. You gave me wings, but not ground. Now I stand here and I don't know if I know. to walk without your guidance. I don't know if I can be happy without your smile. I don't know if I can be me without you.

The world remains the same

The same music we listened to together. The same places we walked. The same stories you loved to hear. The same moments of the day when you always called me.

The world remained the same, but only I changed. Things, that made me happy, now hurt me. The places where I was happy now hurt. Even my smile hurts because I know you can't see it anymore.

People tell me, “Time heals all wounds.” How can I tell them that I don’t want to forget you? That I don’t want to “get over” you like a cold? That a part of me left with you and will never come back?

I still hear your voice.

In difficult moments, I still hear your voice: “You can do it.” When I am afraid, I hear: “You are brave.” When I doubt myself, I hear: “I believe in you.”

Maybe this is what you wanted – to become a part of you forever. That I may not forget your words, even when you are no longer with me. That I may carry your love forward, even when I can no longer hug you.

The story doesn't end here.

I won't dwell on the pain. I will find a way to live on – not without you, but with you in my heart. I will learn to make decisions, but I will still listen to your voice inside me.

I will learn to trust people, but I will remember your warnings. I will learn to be happy because I know that's what I want..

You taught me to love myself.

Now I have to learn to live with that love, even when you're no longer here to remind me of it. That's the hardest lesson you left me. At the same time, the greatest gift is knowing that I am worthy of love. Even yours, which will never end.

Thank you for teaching me to be strong.