Why do we stick with people who don't respect us enough? Why do we allow ourselves to be burdened by the past over and over again instead of moving forward? Today I finish this chapter.
For a long time I looked for reasons to stay. I'm a long time justified your actions, your words, your silence. All I wanted was love.
There were days when I still believed in us, when I thought our future was bright and full of possibilities. I wondered what else I could do to make it work for us. I believed that if I patient enough, understanding and persistent, you may finally see how much I can give you. But the years passed, and each new day convinced me that I was living in an illusion.
How many times have I postponed my happiness because of you?
How many times have I closed my eyes to the truth, just so I wouldn't lose the idea I created about us? Too many times. I focused so much on your needs, your fears and your desires that I completely forgot about myself.
For a long time I thought I had to save you, that it was my love that would change you. Today I know that is not true.
No one can save another if they don't want to. No one can fill the void in someone else's heart unless they are willing to open the door themselves.
I no longer live for your approval
I finally realized that I'm not here to please you. I'm not here to prove my worth by endless effort that you don't even notice. I'm here to live my life to find luck and sense in your ways.
Your indifference she taught me how valuable attention is. Your silence she taught me the importance of honest communication. Your distance she showed me that I am enough on my own - and that I deserve more.
This moment is a turning point for me. No more anger, no more sadness, just clarity. I see the truth I have been afraid of for so long. This truth is simple: our story is coming to an end, and that's just fine.
I'm closing this chapter. Not because I hate you, but because I finally did learned to love myself.
