Have you ever thought about what I was going through when you turned away? When I called your name and you were silent? Today I no longer blame you. Instead, I gratefully say: thank you.
You never had time for me.
In the moments when I was most vulnerable, you were silent. When I needed support, you pulled away. At that moment, I was sure there was something wrong with you. I wondered if you were indifferent or if you just couldn't handle it. I felt anger, disappointment, even loneliness. I didn't understand why.
But today I understand, that you taught me something valuable through your absence. I learned how to stand on my own two feet. I learned how to trust myself and how to find strength where I didn't see it before.
Thank you for having to find my way out of the darkness myself.
When I fell, you left me there. It was cruel. At that time, I thought I was at the end. I thought I couldn't do it without your support. You were gone. When there was no one to offer me a hand, I realized that I could take the first step on my own. That step was difficult, uncertain, and slow, but mine.
If you would help me then, I never knew how strong I could be.. I would never have realized that I had everything I needed within me. Your absence forced me to take responsibility for my own progress. And I am stronger today because of it.
Disappointment, it opened my eyes
Realizing that I can't count on you has changed me. This realization hurt at first. I felt like I was losing you, even though you were still there—at least physically. But your silence, your detachment, revealed the truth to me: people aren't always who we expect them to be. It's not your fault, it's just a fact.
I learned that they are mine expectations the ones that sometimes hurt me the most. When I let go of those expectations, I started looking at relationships differently. Now I know who are the ones who are truly there for me, and who are only there when everything is nice and easy.
Love, I discovered it within myself
When I was looking for your love, I started building mine. Your absence was a painful lesson for me. It taught me that the love I seek from others must first come from within myself. Until I loved myself, I depended on the validation of others. I didn't want that anymore.
I gradually began discover your worth. I understood that I am not less than you because you were not here. My worth does not depend on you, or anyone else. The love I feel for myself did not come overnight, but today it is stronger than I ever thought it could be.
Pain was a tool for growth
Your absence has shaped me. You may never understand this, but your ignorance has made me stronger than I ever thought possible. I have learned to face challenges without your words or actions. I have learned that it is not absence that can hurt me, only my reaction to it.
Today, I am no longer defined by pain. I am defined by the strength I have built from it. I learned to take what hurts and transform it into something that makes me stronger.
Thanks for the lessons.
Thank you for not being there when I needed you. Even though I thought I couldn't do it without you, I know now that you taught me the greatest lesson. I learned that I am enough.
