Have you ever felt that you invested everything in someone who didn't know how to appreciate you? Have you ever wondered why you are always the one giving while others are taking? And did you realize that you have to choose yourself?
This story is about how to free your heart and yourself move away from the relationship, which takes more from you than it gives.
When do you decide enough is enough?
I believed in us for a long time. Every word, every touch and every spark convinced me that we were something special. I've watched you laugh at my stories, how you casually find my gaze and how you touch me fleetingly - like you care. I trusted what I wanted to see and told myself that you just need time.
But the truth was different
You lived in the moment, and I built future. I was willing to give everything, but you were willing to accept only so much that you didn't have to risk it. The more I tried, the more I saw that it was I am alone in this relationship. I kept hoping that we would find a balance, but the balance never came.
One day I looked in the mirror and asked myself a question: "Why would you give your heart to someone who takes you as an option?" The answer was painful but liberating. I understood that I'm not the one who can change you and that it's time to stop waiting. I no longer wanted to be your backup, your refuge, your comfort when the world failed you.
I knew I wasn't inferior because you didn't choose me. I understood that your inability to love it's not my defeat, it's yours. This realization gave me the strength to take a step back and choose myself.
I forgave you - for me, not you
When I decided to leave you behind, I didn't feel anger. Instead, I felt relief. I forgave you because I knew you didn't hurt my heart on purpose. I also forgave myself for holding on to something that wasn't real for a long time. I've learned that love isn't always reciprocated and that there's something beautiful about that - because it means you can still love regardless of the outcome.
I promised myself that I would choose better next time. I am waiting for someone who will be proud to have me by his side. Someone who will know all sides of me – from my best moments to my deepest wounds. Someone who will look at me as a gift, not an option.
I realize that I am enough
My value does not depend on who chooses me. My worth is in how I choose myself and my life. And that is the greatest gift I can give myself.
Now I know love is waiting for me somewhere when the time is right. I will no longer settle for crumbs when I deserve a full meal. The love that comes will be mutual, strong and true. Until then, I will cherish my heart and prove to myself that I am enough - always and everywhere.
