I knew I was over you when I stopped waiting for you to come back.
I've stopped imagining the thousands of ways we'll meet again and fall back into your arms. I stopped believing that all I needed was a chance to change. I stopped thinking that there was even the slightest possibility of correcting all our misunderstandings. For the first time I saw clearly that there was no way I could continue. We were not one, but each from a different planet.
The truth is, we don't belong together anymore. Since that fateful day when you decided to walk out of my life, when I needed you the most. I really needed you.
We don't belong together anymore, ever since we stopped trying for each other. We didn't drift apart overnight. We were separated by unspoken words and a silent distance. An invisible crack in our seemingly flawless relationship that eventually proved to be our undoing. The silence and lack of communication brought us to a state of inevitable collapse.
I know, we're not meant to be together. Everything will be ok. Photo: Anthony Tran/UnsplashI didn't ask for much. All I wanted was honesty and transparency without lies and deception. All I wanted was someone who would treat me with love, care and respect. Someone who would put me first because I matter to him. Someone who would never, ever give up on our relationship no matter how hard it got. Someone who appreciates my worth and appreciates the person I am without the need to change me.
I can't be the ideal person you've been looking for. Maybe I was wrong to think that love can conquer all and that we deserve a second chance. When we tried again, I realized that our relationship was already over.
We were caught up in unfulfilled expectations and growing resentment. It is ironic that the relationship that once brought us so much joy has become the cause of our suffering.
I slowly realized that I was exactly where I needed to be. I have no desire to find another partner, not yet. I don't want to wonder what I could have done differently so that our paths would have led to each other.
I'm ready for myself and my life without you.
