Somewhere inside you feel that your relationship is no longer what it should be.
The moment you lose respect for someone is the moment everything changes.
That moment when you stand looking at the person you thought you knew so well. A person you once admired or someone you trusted. You still can't believe that this is actually the person who told you that she would never change, that she would never betray you.
Now you laugh at the irony that the day you told them about your fears, you were sure they would never relive them. You were sure you would never experience them with them. You didn't even think that they were the same as the others, that they would hurt you.
The moment you lose respect for someone is the moment you see the same old patterns that once caused you pain and you overlooked them. You saw the warnings, the same inconsistency, the same excuses and decided to look past.
You could see him changing, but part of you hoped you were wrong. A part of you hoped it was just your fears creeping in. Part of you hoped that the doubts were only in your head. But part of you knew that this was something you had experienced before, that this was what you were trying to avoid. A part of you felt that this person was not what they appeared to be. He knew that someone else was hiding behind the mask.
The moment you lose respect for someone is the moment you realize you can no longer tolerate their behavior. The moment you run out of patience with those who don't know how to respect you.
It's the moment you realize that even though you were afraid of losing them, you're not afraid to leave because you can't be with someone you don't respect. You can't be with someone who you confided your deepest secrets and hurts to, and instead of respecting them, they used them to create your pain.
The moment you lose respect for someone, you realize that sometimes respect is more important than love. When respect disappears, so does love, as it slowly fades away, passion evaporates and the spark burns out.
That moment is the moment when you know that this person has disappeared, that he is no longer the same as he was when you fell in love with him.
This is the moment when his existence changes in your eyes, when everything changes, including you.
You have become a person who will not tolerate disrespect just because you love someone. Not anymore. Now you have started to love yourself.
